apakah itu sebabnya?

Dalam satu kisah percintaan yang menarik. Sepasang suami isteri berjalan di tepi sebuah tasik yang indah. Kemudian mereka berhenti di sebuah bangku yang disediakan di tepi tasik. Kemudian si isteri bertanya kepada si suami. Ini dialog mereka

Isteri : Mengapa abang menyukai saya? Mengapa abang cintakan saya?

Suami : Abang tidak boleh menerangkan sebabnya, namun begitu abang memang
menyayangi dan mencintai Sayang!

Isteri : Abang tak boleh terangkan sebabnya? Bagaimana abang boleh katakan
abang sayang dan cintakan saya sedangkan abang tidak boleh menerangkannya.

Suami : Betul! Abang tak tahu sebabnya tetapi abang boleh buktikan bahawa
abang memang cintakan Sayang!

Isteri : Tak boleh beri bukt! i! Tidak! Saya hendak abang terangkan kepada
saya sebabnya. Kawan-kawan saya yang lain yang mempunyai suami dan teman
lelaki, semuanya tahu menerangkan mengapa mereka mencintai. Dalam bentuk
puisi dan syair lagi. Namun begitu abang tidak boleh terangkan sebabnya

Si suami menarik nafas panjang dan dia berkata "Baiklah! Abang mencintai Sayang sebab sayang cantik, mempunyai suara yang merdu, penyayang dan mengingati abang selalu. Abang juga sukakan senyuman manis dan setiap tapak Sayang melangkah, di situlah cinta Abang bersama Sayang!"

Si isteri tersenyum dan berpuas hati dengan penerangan suaminya tadi. Namun begitu selang beberapa hari si isteri mengalami kemalangan dan koma.

Si suami amat bersedih dan menulis sepucuk surat kepada isterinya yang disayangi. Surat itu diletakkan di sebelah katil isterinya di hospital.

Surat tersebut berbunyi begini :

"Sayang!Jika disebabkan suara aku mencintai mu... sekarang bolehkah engkau bersuara? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu. Jika disebabkan kasih sayang dan ingatan aku mencintai mu...sekarang bolehkah engkau menunjukkannya? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu.Jika disebabkan senyuman aku mencintai mu... sekarang bolehkah engkau tersenyum? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu.Jika disebabkan setiap langkah aku mencintai mu.... sekarang bolehkah engkau melangkah? Tidak! Oleh itu aku tidak boleh mencintai mu. Jika cinta memerlukan sebabnya, seperti sekarang. Aku tidak mempunyai sebab mencintai mu lagi. tapi, aku masih mencintai mu dulu, kini, selamanya dan cinta tidak perlu ada sebab yg zahir. Kadangkala perkara tercantik dan terbaik di dunia tidak boleh dilihat, dipegang. Namun begitu... ia boleh dirasai dalam hati...cukuplah sayang sebagai isteri abang dan kita sebagai hamba Allah sebagai sebabnya..."

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hmmm..jika begitu kisahnye untuk manusia,bagaimana dengan perasaan 'cinta' kita kepada yg Maha Esa? apekah kita cintakan Allah hanya kerana Dia telah memberikan kita tangan? atau sekadar die telah berikan kita anggota tubuh yg sempurna? tidak dinafikan,kita perlu mengangkat kesyukuran kepada Allah atas kurniaanNya itu, tapi bukanlah itu sebab utamanya...maka bagaimana sekiranya semua nikmat itu ditarek oleh Allah? adakah terhenti perasaan cinta kita kepada Allah pada saat itu? atau bagaimana dengan mereka2 yg tidak dikurniakan semua itu? cinta yg sejati lahir dari hati...bukanlah dari akal yg sentiasa lari....

by ahas

Kawasaki Eliminator 125

Just like the above picture but without penyandar kat blkg, that's how my father's KE look like. Cantikkan? ^^

Emm..at last my father sold his KE.. after almost 14 years he owned it and he only rode it once in a while..i think not more than 20 times ^^;

emm...luas cket dapur skrg ni..bcoz of our neighbourhood is not safe to put something like this outside the house, my father insisted to put KE in the kitchen (=.=;) that's why i dont like KE very much.. space occupying lesion je...

my father bought it for rm15 000 and he actually wanted to sell it for rm4900 but after negotiation he sold it at rm2900 to the lucky man.. very cheap kn?..

p/s: from the first time my father bought it until he sold it, i dont have any chance to ride KE..believe it or not, my mother didnt allow me..tkut jatuh #.# aiiiya..

menguji kesabaran

why people these days owes made me mad?!!

plz dont talk to me if u gonna pissed me off!

menguji kesabaran betul..

O&G

the night before the result came out, i dreamt of failing my O&G posting! (even deep down inside i knw it's only mainan tidur..but i still worried.. :( )

i passed my last exam...not just barely pass or borderline pass but a good pass ^^
it's miracle! Alhamdulillah.. =) i just cant stop smiling...

Alhamdulillah tht i prayed istikharah b4 i chose this course.. bcos as Allah promised wht is best for me and the journey that i will lead on will be eased by Him.. it's my destiny..

"Ya Allah..
Sesungguhnya aku minta petunjuk yang baik dariMu, dengan ilmuMu, aku minta kekuatan dariMu, dengan kekuatanMu. Aku meminta dariMu dari kelebihanMu yang banyak, maka sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa, aku tidak berkuasa, Engkau mengetahui dan Engkaulah yang paling mengetahui perkara-perkara ghaib.

Ya Allah..
Jika Engkau mengetahui perkara ini baik untukku, agamaku, duniaku, dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang, maka tentukannya untukku dan permudahkannya kepadaku, jika Engkau mengetahui bahawa perkara ini tidak baik untukku pada agamaku, duniaku, dan kesudahan urusanku buat masa kini dan masa akan datang maka elakkannya dariku & elakkan diriku daripadanya.

Tentukanlah kebaikan untukku di mana sahaja aku berada. Sesungguhnya Engkau berkuasa di atas segala sesuatu.."

[Doa Selepas Sembahyang Istikharah]

isk isk.. i'm touched.. He still loves me.. =)

spot check

today...i dont have any class but still need to go to the hosp =( bcoz prof A will b coming for other gp bst...aiiiiiiii....

so...today, in the morning i just follow rounds and wandering again...who knws i might get one or two procedures... i need to present a case of Asthma within 4 weeks, so i clerked one asthma ptn...
while clerking, Dr Y came approached me.. frm far i can see him smiling broadly (wht is with him? =.=;)...

Dr Y: dont u hav any bst this morning?
me: no dr. the other gp. gp c is supposed to hav bst wif Prof A now, but he's not here.
Dr Y: who is gp c's leader?
me: it's P.
Dr Y: can u call him for me.. bla..bla..n the stories goes on...

anyway, he's happy at tht time...well, i sense tht he just cannot stop smiling...who knws actually he is doing spot check on us!!!! luckily, everybody is around...no wonder he smiled... ;p (only our gp does not knw tht he was actually checked on student! =p)

during lunch wif my frenz from other gp, i discovered tht dr Y did a spot check. n they got scolded bcoz some of their gp members are absent.. kene bebel smp setengah jam beb! each gp! that's mean dr Y actually scolded for 1 hour! tahannyerr..dahla kene bebel bcoz of someone else...semua geram...huhuhuhu..it's funny though...bcos wktu kene bebel my fren actually tried to distract him by asking about smthg else regarding cwu...but after he explained about it, he continue nagging!!...pity....^^;
hohohhhooho =D pity...but funny...

and that afternoon, i almost got the same prob bcos my fren n i tserempak with dr Y. both of us, pretending not aware of him..but...
dr Y: what r u doing? (with a ganas look! =.= he's the one who owes tsengih..)
me: errr...(tkezut with his look..well nvr see him like tht ^^)
my fren: we just come back frm pray (wif pandangan mata yg melawan dr Y =.=)
dr y: owh..(he's expression change..not so garang anymore) so u're going back to CTW
my fren: yes! (dgn garang)
n then dr y talked to me about gp c bst again...bla2

hohohoho....=D

feel very sleepy later afternoon...(well, still not 5pm yet >.<; n waiting for Prof A to attend bst with gpc) and me sempat menceroboh ward ortho to see my Darling thr...(well, i'm bored upstairs, alone in my ward~~)...hehehehe..cian my darling cos tpaksa entertain me..^^;

p/s: i got a warning letter bcoz i didnt park at the parking space provided. duhhh...? if thrs enuf pkg space, i wouldnt parked thr.. >.<;

first day

(@.@;) today is my first day of medical posting this yr...

from 7am until 5pm.......... waaa... very tired...no class...just wandering around in the ward..
but afraid to go home early... (just in case our Prof A check on us >.<;)

bcoz got nothing to do, i had clerked 4 patients today; ACS+hypertensive urgency, TB meningitis, Hepatic encephalopathy, malignant histiocytosis.. what a record.. never clerked so many ptns a day
(err...actually i had clerked more ptns during paeds posting; also bcoz got nothg to do just playing wif the children n clerked the mother ^^v <--got compliment frm the specialist bcoz of this! hehe..)

emm..i caught one procedure today...lumbar puncture! The HO did only one attempt! wow impressive..! and the csf drain easily not like prev LP i had seen (no increase icp k)...
i assisted them...hehehe..just holding the csf bottle n recap it...does it count as assist? ^^; hihi

beach

today...

we studied in the library...

as a treat (for hardworking ^^;), we went to the beach after studied several hours..hehehe...

if only i can swim~~

my kola bear

a picture worth a 1000 words ^^v

culinary art

this morning while surfing i came across of a blog CakeJournal.com .. wow! wht a magnicent job she did to her cakes!!

emm.. i wonder what if rite now i am a culinary art student..?

i dream of... making the flowery cake for my parents, the teddy bear cake for my dearly youngest sis, the love cake for my future husband (hihihi ^^), that castle and train cakes for my future kids (hehehe ^^)...kan best.... Enuf dreaming!! ^^;

P/S= this thing made me thought of a poem i learnt during English Lesson in high school.. =)
Yes...what if i took another road before..? hehehe.. no lah.. i won't turn back..i've met the right guy here ^^ he is my Dear....

The Road Not Taken
by Robert Frost.

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,

9 september

We watched a movie again today.. 9 September, directed by Pierre Andre..
When my Darling suggest that we watch 9 September, i thought it is english movie yg salah tarikh 11 september hehe...apelah sy ni..(^^;)\

The movie was Funny, Hilarious and Entertaining!! (in the begining only =(..) i never expected that it is a sad ending story..(>.<;)

Anyway, my Darling slept during the last part! (=.=;)...hehehe...cian dier.. i didn't want to wake him bcoz i know he's tired (he just finished his exam this morning).. but the ending part, i need to wake him up..(hehe...tkut he will scold me if i don't wake him ^^;)

Overall, the movie is good. I recommend all to watch it.. Congratulations Pierre! v(^-^)v

ferrari

emm.. early this morning my father said that he will sell one of our cars..either mine or my sis..!
n he alr bought another old honda (why honda..? =.=;)..

well..i think..buying another old car, u need a very regular maintenance..not only that, it will owes broke down!..arrgghh...

Harga jual - harge kos - service - service - another service - another service - etc..= -ve$$$$

p/s: waaa...really hope that it is not gonna b my car (>.<)

blogging? not blogging?

cont..

When i read my darling blog hehehe..i felt like i wanna have one too.. eventho i know the one who's gonna read it would be only him (^^)v ..The things that i'm gonna share here are mainly the things that happen everyday in my life.. emm..so this is a kind of online diary for me (>.<;) [err isn't a blog is suppose to b like that..? (^^;)\]

Today, I've just finished my O&G posting exam. quite tough! emm..not tough actually, it is just me who got nervous n merepek wkt exam...!! aiiii (>.<;) emm.. skrg ni tgal byk2 berdoa dan berserah.. dan bersedia utk mhadapi ape jua yg bkal tjadi nanti.. wpun dah pasrah but i'm still hoping that i can pass this exam..ameen..do pray for me k!

After the exam, i watched a movie with my darling. A movie called Lambs & Lions..err or izit Lions & Lambs? (^^;) Anyway, the movie is NOT suitable for us! =.=; not suitable for him who hasn't finish his exam yet (needs to relax for a while..) and for me who just finished her exam n want to watch a light & most importantly easy to understand movie..L&L was not the kind tht u look for! ooh my... when we entered the hall, we saw a lots of 'golden citizens' i.e warga emas in the cinema..we wonder why (+.+;) (should suspect smthg wrong at tht time! >.<;) after we watched it for a while..then we know~~...politics..politics..aiiiiii....
(err..correction: the movie was Lions for Lambs actually ^^;)

Even the movie was like that, i'm still hepi! hehehe...Thank you dear for ur willingness to accompany me tadi..really need it and really appreciate it.. =)

p/s: hihihi..another bad film to be added in our list..^^; dh bpe dah ek?

first thing first..

Salam..

this is my first blogging attempt.. a bit clueless... hihihihi ^^;
want to write more but need to do smthg else rite now...
i'll continue later k...bye.. ^^